Do you ever wonder why your goals, dreams and intentions are seemingly impossible to achieve? Why is it that when you set out to accomplish something , before you know it, you feel as though you have been hijacked by something you can’t put your finger on? Or you convince yourself you can’t do it before you begin? Or maybe you do accomplish all that you set out to achieve and you still don’t feel good enough, so you are constantly setting more goals?
I have. This is what drove me for YEARS. For years, I pushed to prove myself by doing figure competitions, races and the like because my foundation was built on not being good enough, not mattering enough. When I succeeded in these endeavors, I would never let myself celebrate, because WHY in the world would I do that if I still felt like I didn’t matter and wasn’t good enough? In all of the goals I created and fulfilled, there was always a feeling that I could have done better. SO, I would create another carrot to chase.
You may ask, what is wrong with this? The price of this is HUGE. If I continued down this path, chances are great that I would not succeed in any of my relationships. I wouldn’t appreciate any moment in my life. I would never be present for anyone, because I would always be thinking about how I could have done better or my next goal. The bottom line is that I would have missed out on my life. I would have lost the opportunity to create an amazing marriage, the incredibly irreplaceable moments I have had with my son and the chance to inspire and lift others (this IS my calling).
So my question is, WHAT is driving you? As the saying goes, you don’t know what you don’t know. Could it be a pattern handed down from one of your parents? So engrained in your behavior, emotionally and mentally, that you can’t see it for what it is? It’s comparable to your home being built on top of sand, but never having the awareness that you may have a huge issue on your hands until some time has passed. Overtime, the house starts to break down because the land it sits on is weak. Do you have a foundation of not mattering, not being good enough or some other variation that goes around disguising itself as part of who you are? These are the core beliefs I adopted along the way, studies have shown it can be passed along as early as in the womb. These beliefs hijacked my intentions, my dreams and my life. They will hijack yours as well until you expose them, accept them and rewrite a new belief system. Until you have fixed your foundation and replaced it with empowering data, you will keep getting the same exact results as you are right now. This is a great thing if you are fulfilled, fully expressed and truly alive. However, most of us are just going through the motions, acting out these generational patterns and are about to hand them down to the next generation.
Life isn’t meant to be played out this way, my friends. Until I committed to bringing my patterns out under the spotlight and got intentional about conscious living, I might as well have been sleep walking through my life. I decided I would not pass this down to my children, that the buck will stop with me. What is driving you that you don’t know is driving you to sleepwalk through your life? More importantly, what is the price this is having on your life?

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